Hey

Haven't been on in a while. Not since May 27th, or so my computer claims. Lots of stuff happened. For example, I finished freshman year, and i'm a quarter of the way through my sophomore year (and yes, its pretty frightening). Lauryn's done with her sophomore year, and she's a quarter of the way through her junior year. wow. well its safe to say we've both had a rugged time.

I don't know if I can speak for her, but I know I've felt pretty alone in the world. Everybody's been having a rough year. All of my friends. And for the most part, nobody's been talking to anybody else. For a number of reasons. One reason is that they don't want to place any of their personal burden on anyone else. Some say its because they don't want to appear weak. Others say its because they've got to sort out things for themselves. Still more say its because we've become too different. Whatever the reason, everyone's been drifting. And my friendship with Lauryn is no exception to this trend.

It appears as of now as though its going to go the way as a few other relationships have gone lately. It will end and become a dusty memory in the back of our minds. We will look at each other, and our thoughts of each other will stay frozen some time in September or August of 2007, never to move forward. A nod in the hallway sort of relationship. I'm not one to complain...that's a lie actually. I do complain. A lot. Nonetheless, some people have told each other they simply want to move on, and they'll return to each other when they both have their lives sorted out. Despite the hope that this message delivers, its still a painful process to go through, as i'm sure all of you have gone through at least once in their life. sometimes you return to friendship, other times, it slips into the "what once was" category. The "once upon a time" phase. Long story short, here's the jist of it. I miss Lauryn.

What ever happened to the happy days? The late nights spent drawing pictures in notebooks. The neverending phone calls. The countless minor triumphs and pitfalls of the day. The numerous accomplishments and losses we have collected. What happened to them? Where did they go? I don't know. Perhaps we're getting too old to do that anymore. If thats the case, then I never want to grow old, and I regret anything I said about wanting to be older as a child. Because its definitely not worth it. why go through life without a companion? I dont know. If you do I'd like to hear it, for I'm simply at a loss for words.

See you all around

1/2 of what once was the rainbrigade